Could-a, Should-a, Would-a Been Dead

You’re supposed to be dead. But you don’t have to be dead because of Jesus Christ. (Robyn Tse)
First, allow me to apologize if what you’re about to read is a pretty lengthy post. But I’ve thought long and hard about what I’m about to share in the next few paragraphs. And in that long time, a lot of thoughts have also crossed my mind. What if I’m over-analyzing? What if what I’m conveying is wrong? Least to say, what I’m about to share here has been something that’s been in my heart for quite some time now. And the quote above from this week’s Gospel presentation ultimately prompted me to share it. Stick with me on this one, I’m sure it’ll be worth the few minutes of your procrastination. (But after this, please do your work.)

Allow me to put it into perspective first, though: about a year ago I’ve grown this obsession into what someone once labelled as ‘next level Christian rock’. You know, songs from the post-hardcore to the metalcore genres with a Christian message on them. Throughout the year, I’ve come across awesome acts that feature great men (and sometimes women) of God who have been able to take such a genre of music typically associated with negative things and have transformed it into a very unique yet great ministry platform.

For starters, one of the acts I’ve really come to love would be the post-hardcore band Wolves At The Gate. Some on YouTube have actually defined their sound as Worshipcore because of how they have crafted such a heavy sound to be perfectly paired with lyrics that you would usually find in a contemporary worship song you’d corporately sing in a church setting. And yes, sometimes I actually find myself in a moment of worship while I reflect on the lyrics either being sung or yes, screamed.

What you’re about to read is a personal interpretation of Wolves At The Gate’s “Dead Man”. Looking from a biblical perspective, the song in its entirety depicts one of Jesus’ parables, namely the Parable of the Prodigal Son. (Luke 15:11-32) But if you look at it verse by verse, it somehow also mirrors the Gospel in a way or two. You can listen to the song in its entirety by clicking to the lyric video posted below. Meanwhile, why don’t we go deeper into what they sing and scream.


And I was once a dead man
A stranger with no home
I stood opposed to God Himself
And yet, He pardoned me

With all my heart and the fiercest will
Desired not but to thieve and kill
I hadn’t a thought of peace, but war
Surrender was not what I’d endure

I was a murderer
Filled with lies and deceit
Faced with my list of crimes
That I would always repeat

We’ve all heard of this reality: that we were created for a loving relationship with God the Father and that we were meant to have a great and meaningful life to be spent with Him. (John 3:16, John 10:10) Yes indeed, that was the Father’s initial intentions when He made Adam and Eve in that beautiful garden. But long story short, currently we are separated away from our Creator because of our sin. (Romans 3:23) And as the first few seconds of the song conveys, we are dead men who stood opposed to God Himself. And when we say death here, we’re not talking about the time we depart this earth. We’re talking about the condition of our hearts. Needless to say, we’re bound somewhere not pretty should we continue our lifestyle of lies and deceit. (Revelation 21:8)

Deliver me, wake me up from this damning sleep
I’m surrendering, pull me out from this wickedness
In this thieving heart of stone
I realized all these sins I could not atone

I can’t help but to put an emphasis on “I realized all these sins could not atone” when I look at this verse. Indeed, we cannot and absolutely will not be able to save ourselves. We can’t pay for the penalty of our sin. Sure, we can be nice, do some charity work, follow a religion and all; but at the end of the day, those won’t be able to reconcile us to a perfect and holy God who sees sin – no matter how big or small it is – as sin. And with how holy He is, He cannot tolerate even the smallest bit of it. At all. (Romans 3:10-12, Galatians 2:16)

So just at the right time
When we were dead in our sins
You took this heart of mine
And gave me life again

So far apart and a debt to fulfill
This purchase bought on redemption’s hill
And ailing disease I couldn’t cure
Oh, this grace how rich and pure

I think those two verses summed it up perfectly. Jesus Christ, when we were even yet sinners, paid the penalty of our sins by dying on the cross. (1 Corinthians 15:3-6) Truth be told, that should have been us in there. That should have been us facing the wrath of God. That should have been us left to pay for our sins. We did the sinning but it was Jesus who died in our place for our sins.

Abide in me, my God! I am found in You
Pardon me, my God! You know my deepest thoughts
Deliver me from sin! I am made anew
I’m surrendering this heart for which Your blood it bought

“For which Your blood it bought”. It is done. Paid for. It is finished. Love, forgiveness, grace, mercy is us for the taking. We cannot pay for it. We don’t need to. All that had to be done for us to have our relationship with God the Father reconciled has been done and we can finally live a life in which He transforms us inside out. Just one thing, though: we need to receive this gift from God. (John 1:12, Romans 6:23, Ephesians 2:8 & 9)

The mob they yelled and screamed for justice
That wrath was ours, we are to blame

You made a spectacle of rulers, denying You of a king’s fame
Having crushed the written cannon that wrote of all our guilt and shame
Displayed upon the tree it was nailed: the saving power of Your name

For I was once a dead man
A stranger with no home
You saw this wretch and You gave him life
Forever I’ll praise You

Allow me to say it again: we deserved the death Jesus died for us sinners. That wrath He experienced when the Father looked away from Him momentarily when He took all our sin; that shame he had to bear being crucified; the torture of those nails, the crown of thorns. And yet now that we believe that He indeed shed His blood for our freedom, what better response we could have but to offer our very own lives as a living sacrifice. (Romans 12:1) It is not enough that we believe; we should desire to have our lives transformed into His image, ultimately reflecting others to the one and only King. We’re not just meant to receive this amazing grace, but also to tell others about it. (Matthew 28:16-20) This process of living a life after His heart doesn’t happen overnight, yet we should desire it every day of our lives to be aligned to the image of our Redeemer, our Saviour, and our friend.


Allow me to end this by posting the music video the band produced for the said song. This video is a totally different story (it sent me to tears a couple times, mind you), yet is as powerful as the song in itself.


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